| tears are turning into time |
[10 Apr 2005|06:27pm] |
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Your dating personality profile:
Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love. Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Practical - You are a down-to-earth individual who is not impressed with material excess. You care about the stuff of like that really matters. | Your date match profile:
Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life. Conservative - Forget liberals, you need a conservative match. Political discussions interest you, and a conservative will offer the viewpoint you need. Shy - You are put off by people who are open books. You are drawn to someone who is a bit more mysterious. You want to draw him out of his shell and get to know what he is all about. | Your Top Ten Traits
1. Big-Hearted 2. Liberal 3. Practical 4. Religious 5. Sensual 6. Romantic 7. Intellectual 8. Funny 9. Adventurous 10. Wealthy/Ambitious
| Your Top Ten Match Traits
1. Big-Hearted 2. Conservative 3. Shy 4. Practical 5. Funny 6. Intellectual 7. Romantic 8. Religious 9. Adventurous 10. Wealthy/Ambitious
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| would you mind if i sat next to you and watched you smile |
[09 Apr 2005|08:21am] |
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AtreyuTbsFata: ha did i tell u AtreyuTbsFata: i had a dream about u AtreyuTbsFata: i could tell it was a dream cuz every thing was sooo perfect AtreyuTbsFata: it was amazing AtreyuTbsFata: well u were here in keansburg AtreyuTbsFata: and u and i were holding hands as we walked down the beach AtreyuTbsFata: and we put a towel down and watched the sunset AtreyuTbsFata: then we lay back and i held u close to me as we looked up at the stars AtreyuTbsFata: and nothing else mattered at the time AtreyuTbsFata: all that exsisted was me and u AtreyuTbsFata: and it didnt matter what happend next AtreyuTbsFata: if the world ended it was great AtreyuTbsFata: cus u were by my side AtreyuTbsFata: so as i held u close and we were looking at the stars u said something to me i cant remember what it was but i was so amazing that everything faded away cept u n i and i just looked into ur eyes and i remeber what i said i said would u mind if i sat next to u and watched u smile
I have to say that he is the most amazing boy I have ever met. There isn't a day when he doesn't make me smile, and talking to him is the best part of my day, everyday.
The only way that life could get any better was if you were here with me, where you should be.
♥
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| george w bush is NOT my president |
[02 Apr 2005|01:41pm] |
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Okay so this is pretty much the best thing I have read in quite some time. It honestly made my day.
George W. Bush's 50 greatest accomplishments
1. I attacked and took over two countries. 2. I spent the US surplus and bankrupted the US treasury. 3. I shattered the record for the biggest annual deficit in history (not easy) 4. I set an economic record for the most personal bankruptcies filed in any 12 month period. 5. I set all-time record for the biggest drop in the history of the stock market. 6. I am the first president in decades to execute a federal prisoner. 7.I am the first president in US history to enter office with a criminal record. 8. In my first year in office I set the all-time record for the most days on vacation by any president in US history (tough to beat my dad's, but I did). 9. After taking the entire month of August off for vacation, I presided over the worst security failure in US history. 10. I set the record for most campaign raising trips by any president in US history. 11. In my first two years in office over 2 million Americans lost their jobs. 12. I cut unemployment benefits for more out-of-work Americans than any other president in US history. 13. I set the all-time record for most real estate foreclosures in a 12-month period. 14. I appointed more convicted criminals to administration positions than any other president in US history. 15. I set the record for fewest press conferences of any president since the advent of TV. 16. I presided over the biggest energy crisis in US history and refused to intervene when corruption was revealed. 17. I signed more laws and executive orders amending the Constitution than any other US president in history. 18. I cut health-care benefits for war veterans. 19. I set the all-time record for most people worldwide to simultaneously take to the streets to protest me (15 million people), shattering the record for protest against any one person in the history of mankind. 20. I dissolved more international treaties than any president in US history. 21. I've made my presidency the most secretive and unaccountable of any in US history. 22. Members of my cabinet are the richest of any administration in US history (the poorest multimillionaire, Condoleeza Rice, has a Chevron oil tanker named after her). 23. I am the first president in US history to have all 50 states of the union simultaneously struggle against bankruptcy. 24. I presided over the biggest corporate stock market fraud in any market in any country in the history of the world. 25. I am the first president in US history to order a US attack and military occupation of a sovereign nation, and I did so against the will of the United Nations and the vast majority of the international community. 26. I have created the largest government department bureaucracy in the history of the US. 27. I set the all-time record for biggest annual budget spending increases, more than any other president in US history (Reagan was hard to beat, but I did it!!!) 28. I am the first president in US history to compel the United Nations to remove the US from the Human Rights Commission. 29. I am the first president in US history to have the United Nations remove the US from the Elections Monitoring Board. 30. I removed more checks and balances and have the least congressional oversight of any presidential administration in US history. 31. I rendered the entire United Nations irrelevant. 32. I withdrew from the World Court Of Law. 33. I refused to allow inspectors access to US prisoners of war and by default no longer abide by the Geneva Conventions. 34. I am the first president in US history to refuse United Nations elections inspectors access during the 2002 elections. 35. I am the all-time US (and world) record holder for the most corporate campaign donations. 36. The biggest lifetime contributor to my campaign, who is also one of my best friends, presided over one of the largest corporate bankruptcy frauds in world history (Kenneth Lay, former CEO of EnronCorporation) 37. I spent more money on polls and focus groups than any president in US history. 38. I am the first president to run and hide when the US came under attack (and then lied, saying the enemy had the code to Air Force 1). 39. I am the first US president to establish a secret shadow government. 40. I took the world's sympathy for the US after 9/11, and in less than a year made the US the most resented country in the world (possibly the biggest diplomatic failure in US and world history). 41. I am the first US president in history to have a majority of the people of Europe (71%) view my presidency as the biggest threat to world peace and stability. 42. I changed US policy to allow convicted criminals to be awarded government contracts. 43. I set the all-time record for the number of administration appointees who violated US laws by not selling their huge investments in corporations that later made bids for gov. contracts. 44. I have removed more freedoms and civil liberties for Americans than any other president in US history. 45. I have created the most divided country in decades, possibly the most divided that the US has been since the Civil War. 46. I entered office with the strongest economy in US history and in less than two years turned every single economic category heading straight down. 47. I have at least one conviction for drunk driving in Maine (Texas driving record has been erased and is not available). 48. I was AWOL from the National Guard and deserted the military during time of war. I refused to take a drug test or even answer any questions about drug use. 49. All records of my tenure as governor of Texas have been spirited away to my father's library, sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view. All records of any SEC investigation into my insider trading or bankrupted companies are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view. 50. All minutes of meetings of any public corporations for which I served on the board are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public view. Any records or minutes from meetings I (or my VP) attended regarding public energy policy are sealed in secrecy and unavailable for public review.
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| life is good ♥ |
[13 Mar 2005|09:31am] |
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Well, I must say it has been quite a while since I wrote in this piece last. I suppose it has been an average week, nothing out of the ordinary, especially exciting, or just completely horrible during the actual school week. I took my HSPA makeups and Im glad that those are over with... sheesh they were so easy!! It was easy to the point where if I failed, I would seriously kill myself.. but I guess that might just be because Ive been in honors.. so yeah maybe.. who knows, all I know is that it is over and I am thrilled! On Thursday night me and Jeffrey ventured out to Linens and Things to visit the lovely Nicole Mich ♥ which made me mucho happy. We just rode around for a while which is always fun because the two of us dont go places together as much as we used to, or as much as we should.. but anyways I bought Donnie Darko! woohooo I love that movie so much ♥ and then I bought him dinner. All in all it was a good night. Friday I went to the show with Jeffrey and Nicole and I had sooo much fun! I hung out with Courtney, Kaity and Cindy for the most part.. lmao it was so funny.. we made up rules for why people shouldnt be there.. If you are wearing something with a rainbow on it.. GO HOME! If you are wearing a skirt and an abercrombie shirt... GO HOME! If you havent hit puberty yet... GO HOME! hahaha Bernadette and Bill were there too so I hung out with them for a while.. lol and of course when I came home I couldnt hear anything but thats alright. Yesterday I had to go to the St. Patrick's day parade with the band and the drill team.. I have to admit it wasnt nearly as bad as I anticipated it to be.. Im usually not such a pessimist but when it comes to freezing your ass off in the middle of Trenton, sure you're gonna have your doubts.. okay and well I did freeze my ass off in the middle of Trenton but I had fun. On the bus we all listened to Leon tell his life story.. hahaha we were like SOMEONE SHUT HIM UP PLEASE!!! "Well it all started in first grade, when my best friend was chris jones. We put on a play and I was the star of the show!!!" hahaha it sounded like he was at the therapist or something... oh boy and then the story about baseball?!?!?! well anyways I have to say that lacrosse season is gonna be a lot of fun with leon lol. My shoe was untied the entire time and I kept stepping on it like the clutz that I am.. Im just proud that I didnt fall flat on my face. And I am very impressed that the drill team managed to walk and do pole hits at the same time!! lol woohooo! nice job ladies :) Last night Nicoleon came to get me and we ventured off to the Highstown movie theater with her gigantic bag full of snacks of course.. lmao her and her one liter bottle of sprite hahaha! When we got there Sam and his mom ended up being there so we went to see Hitch and sat with them ♥ it was such a cute movie and it was so funny :) it made my night lmao after the movie I must say that Nicole and I saw a.. um.. interesting sight in the car in front of us in the parking lot hahaha so we beeped the horn as we left and they were like.. HUH???! oh boy.. it was so funny! So then we didnt feel like going home yet and went to the tattoo shop for a bit to show them how nicely her tattoo healed and all... it was a wonderful night! :) Oh how I missed that big sister of mine!!!!
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| whats it like there, do you think about me? |
[01 Mar 2005|11:55am] |
1. How long have we known eachother?
2. How long have we been friends?
3. What was your first impression of me?
4. When you saw me, did you think I was popular or dorky?
5. What is the funniest thing I ever said to you?
6. What is the stupiedest thing I ever said to you?
7. When was a time I really annoyed you? (It's ok, be honest)
8. When was a time you had fun with me?
9. When was a time I was really down in dumps?
10. When was a time I was really really happy?
11. What is my best quality?
12. What is my best feature?
13. Have you ever seen me cry?
14. Have you ever made me cry?
15. Have you ever wanted to be in my shoes for any moment, if so when?
16. What is something you think I take for granted?
17. What is something you know is important to me?
18. Do you think I have ever been in love, if so with who?
19. Who is someone I hate?
20. Who do you think is my best friend?
21. If you could set me up with anyone, who would it be?
22. If I could set you up with anyone, who would it be?
23. Can you see me ever getting married?
24. Would you ever kiss me if it meant no consequences? (Opposite sex)
25. Can you come to me for advice?
26. What is the best advise I ever gave you?
27. What is the best advise you could give me? (Think hard now!)
28. Would you ever consider going out with me? (Opposite sex)
29. Was there ever a time when I hurt your feelings?
30. If you were describing me to someone else, what would you tell them?
31. What song reminds you of me?
32. What do you think my ..1 wish is?
33. Do you regret doing or saying anything to me in the past, if so what?
34. If I reminded you of one animal, what would it be and why?
35. Do you love me? (in a friend way)
36. What is one thing about me that makes me different from other ppl?
37. Have I always been there for you?
38. Have you ever had/do you have a crush on me? (Opposite sex)
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| I just cant look, its killing me |
[18 Feb 2005|11:52am] |
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Whelp, Im pretty bummed out right now, because I thought that I finally had a hold on these headaches of mine and now they are getting worse again. Im sorry that I keep writing about it, because I know that it isnt very interesting, but I really don't have much else to say... I had to leave play practice last night because my head was pounding so hard and I felt like I was gonna throw up.. my face was so hot.. ugh I hate this!! I didnt go to practice this morning either.. which stinks because the show is getting closer and closer and I could use all the help I can get.
Things are still pretty intense at home.. last night I came home and all I wanted to do was go to sleep, but instead I got to listen to everyone scream and yell. Its insane and ridiculous, and I cant take it. Sure, Jeffrey did/does some stupid things but shit give the kid some slack. Seriously, Im sick of listening to everyone yell all the time. There is no reason for things to be this way. Sometimes it doesnt even feel like a family anymore.. maybe I am just being over dramatic, but it's how I feel, and I shouldn't have to feel this way. As soon as I got home I regretted it and all I wanted to do was go back to school. At least I wouldn't have had to listen to that shit there. My dad is such an asshole.. and I really don't understand him. I guess I never will. Im just hoping that things start to look up around here.
So um, lets think of some good news... Only 7 days until my birthday!!! woohooo! Dont forget it!! lol its not really that exciting, I dont get to have a party or anything, which Im used to but hey, if Im not excited about it who will be?
I guess that there really isn't anything else to say. We have a four day weekend, and once again I am piled up with homework, so if you want to talk, you know where to find me.. right here, working away.
Come see the NEHS production of West Side Story on March 3rd, 4th, and 5th at 7:00pm! Buy your tickets today for $7!!! Hurry before we sell out!!! It really is going to be a great show!!
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| fill this out my loverlies <3 |
[09 Feb 2005|05:08pm] |
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1. When and how did we meet?
2. Do you/Did you have a crush on me?
3. Would you ever kiss me/kiss me again?
4. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
5. Describe me in one word, or a few.
6. What was your first impression of me?
7. Do you still think that way about me?
8. What reminds you of me?
9. If you could give me any gift in the world what would it be?
10. Why do you like me?
11. What's one thing you'd change about me?
12. What's a story or memory you have with you and I in it that makes you smile?
13. You and I are going on a trip, where are we going?
14. Make a wish for me. What is it?
15. You and I are in the car together, what's the first CD we're throwing in?
16. In ten years, are we still going to know each other?
17. Do you think I'll be invited to your wedding?
18. Do you think you could ever live with me?
19. What do you hope happens with us in the next five years?
20. I call you and tell you someone stole all of my CDs. Since you're such a good friend you want to buy me one to make me feel better. It can be something I've had before and loved, since now it's gone, or something you don't think I ever had. What CD do you buy me?
21)Who do you think i look like?
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| and the white girls go do do do do do do do |
[06 Feb 2005|09:24pm] |
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So I figured since its a new month and all, I should try and write in this, although my life isnt all too interesting. Hmmmm lets see what has been going on in the life of pina as of late.. well, we started our new classes, and I was really glad for that. It was such a relief to start over. Forensics is fun so far.. I think Im really gonna like that class :) plus Courtney is insaneeee and I love it hahaha so I think that it shall be good times! wooohooo!! 99 bottles of beer on the wall.... lol andddd I get to have Trixie with me so that just OBVIOUSLY means that it will be an awesome class hahaha I dont know if the 3 of us together is the best idea.. I think we will drive the rest of the class crazy but its okieeeeee Physics isnt too bad either.. everyone like hated it but as of now its not so bad, for some reason its like a time warp... it makes us all act like we're 5 years old and we all feel compelled to shout YESSSSSS when we get the right answer.. hahaha I usually just make faces at Carolyn and that passes the time nicely... so obviously we have decided to have a face making contest everyday now until the end of the year. you know how we do. hahahah oh boy. its obviously because we're harcdore. Im really excited that I get to come to play practice now :) hahaha even though I look like a loser because I dont really know what I am doing, its all good because I just like to watch the choreography and stuff.. I must say that the boys are doing a fabulous job this year! :) Obviously Krupke is my favorite song... hahaha so funny. Yesterday I went to the mall with Brittany and Becca to find Brittany a dress for the charity ball. It was definately a much needed trip and I was excited for it :-D We picked out a beautious dress for her.. in fact so wonderful that when Jesenia went shopping today, she ended up getting the same dress! hahaha nice work.. at least these girls have good taste! hahaha oh boy. I guess there is an up side to my dress being so boring.. no one will have it! haha YAY! So it has been decided that Jesenia will be my date for the charity ball.. so fellas back off, shes mine! hahaha woohooo Oh, by the way.. since Im on student council, here's my attempt to get you to go Charity Ball on Friday, February 11th at the Primary School, from 7pm to 11pm. Tickets sold all week for $10, or at the door for $12. Help to support St. Jude's Childrens Research Hospital!!! So today I just went shopping with Nanny and Poppy.. I got a new CD player, West Side Story, and some other stuff... it was a good time :) hehe Well anyways I cant wait for the Super Bowl to be over because I really dont want either team to win.. and Im sick of hearing about it...but I just hate the Eagles soooooo much.. I hope they loseeeeeeeee!!!!
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| take me out <3 |
[29 Jan 2005|11:46am] |
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So here we are yet again on the verge of a three day weekend and surprise surprise little miss Tina is sitting here all by her lonesome with nothing to do.. anyone wanna hang out this weekend? It would be much appreciated.. I mean sure I have Wanda to hang out with but after a while she gets boring...
( Wanda darling where are you? )
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| might as well be strangers |
[26 Jan 2005|06:56pm] |
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So here I am, at the end of the 1st semester, and let me tell you, it is such a relief. Okay, so I really don't have much to complain about seeing as how I don't have to take any finals and I'm sure the rest of you are bogged down with them.. good luck by the way!! But, it's just going to feel good to start over in fresh classes where I am not behind everyone else, I am just beginning. I still have work from Palumbo's English class to make up, but I am not really worrying about that. I am so lucky that I am not making up the work for all of the rest of them.. it would have been insane... So here's the deal.. for all of those who care.. Mr. Fed decided that for his AP History class, since I am so behind, what he would do was just clear everything I have done so far, and not count anything but the work that I have done in the second semester towards my grade in that class. Okay, so it was kind of a waste of the work that I did in the first semester, but its alright, at least I wont be struggling to make everything up that I missed. I wont be getting AP credit for the class, but I will be getting honors credit which is still great, because I wont have to be changing my schedule or anything. As for Junior Seminar, Spanish 3, and Advanced Math Topics, Caroll said that he's just going to say that I withdrew myself from the classes, which means that I will not be getting any credit for them. Again, it kind of sucks because I was doing really well in all of those classes up until I got sick.. Hell I had a 93 in Seminar for the first marking period.. lol but a 13 for the second.. because i was out for 42 days... lmao. wow thats a lot of days.. anyways back on topic.. lol At least I wont have a pile up of make up work, or any failing grades on the report cards. Turns out that I had a total of 85 credits on my transcript already just from freshman and sophmore year, so even with having dropped 3 classes, if I pass all of the rest of the classes I have this year, I will make it by and only have to get 17 credits next year.. that is so awesome!! I can get 15 credits by taking 3 classes.. lol so 17 is no big deal. The best part is... I wont have to go to summer school or anything.. this is so great. This really worked out so much better than I thought it would, and it is such a great weight lifted off of my shoulders... lol I know that you really dont care, but I just felt the need to share because this is pretty much all that is going on in my life right now. I am so excited for new classes to start.. well really just for forensics.. lol I sound like such a loser but for some reason I am just really excited for that class!! haha Well if you actually read this whole thing, I am proud <3 thank you for reading about my boring and pointless life. I love you. <3333 hahaha
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| let it snow |
[22 Jan 2005|07:18pm] |
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So life has been good. Yesterday we went to the primary school and we got to teach the kindergarteners animals in spanish They were so cute... the one girl was adorable and she kept saying how she was gonna go feed her gallinas.. awww lol Ive had this song stuck in my head... La gallina, la gallina, dice shh, dice shh, hagamos silencio, hagamos silenco, por favor, por favor. hahaha I taught with Rebecca and Sam it was fun We all wanna teach little kids.. hey can you blame us? They are adorable!!! The one kid was like possessed by the devil lmao no not really but he was like... this is an axe they kill people... you know what electricutes you? Lightening!! and then Sam heard the same kid saying fuck you fuck you fuck you when they were all sitting in the circle!!! Sam was like... what was that? I didnt hear you?? the kid was just like.. oh nothing... lmao!!! I was like.. OMG!!! hahaha but the rest of them were cute 
Thursday I went to the neurologist for an EEG.. it was so weird.. the lady seperated my hair and drew on my head, and then she put on this paste stuff... then put on 21 electrodes.. it was to test my brain waves.. lol there was a strobe light too and it was going insanely fast.. I was like.. woaahhhh.. lol but we left at 4 to meet my dad at Ocean Spray, took like an hour to get there, spent however long there, and didnt get home til 8:30 and when we got home there was no power... which sucks because I couldnt do my homework.. lmao I documented the journey hahaha
( here we go )
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| this is me |
[17 Jan 2005|03:32pm] |
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I havent been able to sleep at all lately... I dont know why but it is driving me insane. I didnt fall asleep until 8 this morning. I had to skip girl scouts this afternoon because by the time I got up I wouldnt have been able to make it there.. I dont know how Im gonna get up at 5 tomorrow.. lmao chances are Im just gonna go to school without sleep, but its all good. I am really depressed about having to quit the play among other things, but my friends have been making me feel better. Thank you Sam for letting me vent, although I feel like I am a constant burdon to you. You mean a lot to me. Thank you Mike for being my bright spot. I love you <3. I love you both. Onto other news.. lmao it seems that i have a prom date, even though it is the middle of January ;-) woot woot!! Sammy we're gonna have so much fun.. just no bailing on me this time tehe. So yeah, last night I had nothing better to do but take a bunch of pictures. Sorry they're so emo, and pretty ugly seeing as how it was 5 in the morning, but hey this is me.
( love me for me. )
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| not as wholesome as you think |
[15 Jan 2005|11:56pm] |
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Me: so God whats going on in the world today? God: all kinds of fucked up shit Me: nice way for a man of peace to talk! Me: hahahahaha God: u should know by now that there is not much peace on earth God: shit happens God: its a way of balancing the universe Me: ah I see Me: well than proceed Me: as if I could prevent the lord from doing anything Me: forgive me Me: lmao God: your not forgiven Me: why ever not? God: bc I fuckin said so thats why Me: well fuck you Me: you suck at your job anyway God: thats it God: your banished to heel Me: haha heel God: hell** Me: I was going there anyways ;-) God: yeah the heel of my shoe bitch God: thats better Me: lmao no need to get your panties all in a bunch Me: that is, if the lord wears underwear? God: no panties Me: HAHAHAHA God: comando baby Me: oh my God: swing free Me: that puts a whole new perspective on things God: damn straight Me: now when the minister says god is all over I will really know what he means God: thats right God: ;-) God: surprised people havent caught on after more than 2000 years
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Me: sleep comfortably in the nude my lord God: u know you'll be thinkin about it!!!! ;-) Me: hahaha oh obviously ;-) God: and ur gonna like it!!!!!! God: hahahaha Me: lmao God: dont lie to urself Me: oh baby my fantasies will be fulfilled tonight Me: hahahaha God: u know it Me: ;-) God: just think of the words long and hard!!!!!! God: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA Me: hahahahahhahahahaha God: u know ur thinkin about it right now!!!! Me: getting frisky lord? Me: hahahaa God: well, Ill let ur imagination go, later
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[09 Jan 2005|03:11pm] |
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I made some MKA icons for you guys.. they arent too good, but take a look and tell me what you think... :)
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| The Best Deceptions |
[08 Jan 2005|06:37pm] |
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Im sorry I havent written in a while, but there is really nothing good to say... I guess you could say that my life is pretty much at an all time low at the moment. My headaches arent gettting any better, and my neurologist is a quack and wants to send me for a 3 hour long neuropsychological examination.. basically she thinks im crazy or something. So my mom is planning to go to another doctor, but the earliest we can get into another office is February 7th.... so right now Im on another round of steroids hoping to get some temporary relief.
Im coming back to school on Monday but I doubt that I will be able to make it through the day. My mom spoke with the school nurse today.. if I dont make it through Monday then I will have to be home schooled.. its the only way for me to make it through without failing Junior year. I am really dreading it though because I am goind to have to miss everything that I was looking forward to this year.. the play, planning senior prom, semi formal.... all that good stuff.. most of all I wont be able to see any of my friends. I feel so distanced from them right now its insane.. I feel like Im not even a part of the group anymore.. imagine how horrible Im gonna feel to go through a whole year of it... oh man.
On top of all of this, my one source of happiness had been painfully ripped away from me. I guess my mom just doesnt understand me, and chances are she never will. Its sad to know that my own mother doesnt trust me or my judgement.... my father is no better. All of these things are really leading me to think that I am about to fall into a deep depression.. somewhere I promised myself I would never be, sowhere I dont want to be.
All I am hoping for is just a little something that will convince me things are looking up...
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I got this from someone's user info on xanga.. lol I love it
I shave my legs, I sit down to pee. And I can justify any shopping spree. Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon. I can get a massage without a hard-on. I can balance the checkbook, I can pump my own gas. Can talk to my friends, about the size of my ass. My beauty's a masterpiece, and yes, it takes long. At least I can admit, to others when I'm wrong. I don't drive in circles, at any cost. And I don't have a problem, admitting I'm lost. I never forget, an important date. You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late. I don't watch movies, with lots of gore. Don't need instant replay, to remember the score. I won't lose my hair, I don't get jock itch. And just cause I'm assertive, Don't call me a bitch. Don't say to your friends, Oh yeah, I can get her. In your dreams, my dear, I can do better! Flowers are okay, But jewelry's best. Look at me you idiot... Not at my chest????
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